Been ages since I updated. We've been sick, Steve has been away and I turned old (as Emily put it). Night before my birthday Emily says to me "Good Night Mummy, hey Mum, you turn old tomorrow!" Ah, yeah thanks for that!! Well she was right I suppose. 32!!!!??? Kinda having issues with it too. I had no problem at all with 30, 30 was fine, I was in a good place, happily married to Steve, nice house, Matthew and Emily and was pregnant with Sarah and things were all good! 31 wasn't too bad either. There was a lot going on but I had my 3 kids, hubby, life all good. Then 32. Well I still have all of those things, life is a little different (so much busier OMG 3 kids nearly kills me LOL!) but for some reason turning 32 felt like wow I am really in my 30's now!!! Don't panic I'm not having any mid-life crisis or anything just thinking to myself, Wow I really am into my 30's. Steve felt the same when he turned 31 (OMG he's 35 now!! eek!!!). I know it isn't old and I don't have any major issues, just weird. I remember being younger and thinking how old 30 sounded and how responsible and mature it would be and well...I suppose I'm here now!
Anyway, had a fairly good birthday. Matthew woke me with a kiss on the cheek and whispering Happy Birthday Mum, I love you, which was soo nice. Steve was away which was a shame but Dale took me to lunch and Mum and Tam and her kids came over for a sleep over. We spent some time scrapping which was a nice way to finish my birthday!
No idea what else I was going to write. It's now August 2007...nearly a year later LOL! and I had this post saved in my drafts and I am going through adding them all into my blog!
Wednesday, September 27, 2006
Friday, September 15, 2006
My first tag....
Just found this in my drafts so I'm posting it as is....
Well my first tag, thanks Kelley!!
1. Which famous person would you most like to learn that you are descended from? Bill Gates or Sir Richard Branson would be handy!!
2. Which famous person would you hate to learn that you are descended from? Hitler - do i need to say more?? Yeah probably have to agree with Kell on this one
3. If you could be ancestor to any living famous person, who would it be and why? Again I have to agree with you Kelley, famous people are just people. I do however really admire Sir Richard Branson and would love to be related to get to know him better. I think he is incredible!!
4. If you could go back in time and meet any known ancestor(s) of yours, who would it be? My fathers parents ie my grandparents, they passed away before I was born and apparently I am like my grandmother. Would love to meet them. There are a lot of rellies on Dad's side I would love to meet again as they all passed away either before I was born or when I was young! Would also love to meet Mum's grandfather as she adored him!
Four jobs I have had in my life:
1. checkout chick at Franklins
2. Receptionist to an Optometrist
3. Restaurant Supervisor/Bar Manager (and also worked in every aspect of restaurants - kitchen, bar, floor, cashier, office, food prep....)
4. Student (eternal student) and SAHM (the best yet most frustrating job I have ever had!)
B) Four movies I could/would watch over and over:
1. Mr Hollands Opus
2. 16 Candles
3. Spaceballs
4. Spongebob, Wiggles ...in fact any kids movies cause I see them 1000's of times over!!
C) Four places I have lived:
1. Mitchelton
2. McDowall
3. Chermside
4. Geebung
All in Brisbane, in fact I have only ever lived in one more place and that is our house now!
OK now updating the following questions as of August 2007:
D) Four TV shows I love to watch:
1. Prisonbreak
2. Spicks and Specks the The Chasers War on Everything
3. Law and Order SVU
4. What About Brian? (Sadly though, it just ended!!
E) Four places I have been on vacation:
1. Cairns and Great Barrier Reef (my fave holiday ever!)
2. Tasmania
3. Melbourne (driving holiday from Brisbane to Melbourne!!)
4. Bunya Mountains
Never been overseas!! :(
F) Four websites I visit daily:
1. Scrap Forums - Embellished, Scrapbook City; Scrapboxx; Scrapbook Savvy
2. QUT Blackboard (uni notes/info site)
3. Google - must get into the habit of using Blackle though
4. Our banks website - well it feels like daily paying bills!!! :(
G) Four of my favourite foods:
1. Chocolate
2. Chocolate
3. Corned Meat
4. Chocolate
H) Four places I would rather be right now:
1. In Bed
2. on holidays
3. At my scrapping desk
4. On a date with Stephen or out to dinner with my friends!
Stay happy,
Trish
Well my first tag, thanks Kelley!!
1. Which famous person would you most like to learn that you are descended from? Bill Gates or Sir Richard Branson would be handy!!
2. Which famous person would you hate to learn that you are descended from? Hitler - do i need to say more?? Yeah probably have to agree with Kell on this one
3. If you could be ancestor to any living famous person, who would it be and why? Again I have to agree with you Kelley, famous people are just people. I do however really admire Sir Richard Branson and would love to be related to get to know him better. I think he is incredible!!
4. If you could go back in time and meet any known ancestor(s) of yours, who would it be? My fathers parents ie my grandparents, they passed away before I was born and apparently I am like my grandmother. Would love to meet them. There are a lot of rellies on Dad's side I would love to meet again as they all passed away either before I was born or when I was young! Would also love to meet Mum's grandfather as she adored him!
Four jobs I have had in my life:
1. checkout chick at Franklins
2. Receptionist to an Optometrist
3. Restaurant Supervisor/Bar Manager (and also worked in every aspect of restaurants - kitchen, bar, floor, cashier, office, food prep....)
4. Student (eternal student) and SAHM (the best yet most frustrating job I have ever had!)
B) Four movies I could/would watch over and over:
1. Mr Hollands Opus
2. 16 Candles
3. Spaceballs
4. Spongebob, Wiggles ...in fact any kids movies cause I see them 1000's of times over!!
C) Four places I have lived:
1. Mitchelton
2. McDowall
3. Chermside
4. Geebung
All in Brisbane, in fact I have only ever lived in one more place and that is our house now!
OK now updating the following questions as of August 2007:
D) Four TV shows I love to watch:
1. Prisonbreak
2. Spicks and Specks the The Chasers War on Everything
3. Law and Order SVU
4. What About Brian? (Sadly though, it just ended!!
E) Four places I have been on vacation:
1. Cairns and Great Barrier Reef (my fave holiday ever!)
2. Tasmania
3. Melbourne (driving holiday from Brisbane to Melbourne!!)
4. Bunya Mountains
Never been overseas!! :(
F) Four websites I visit daily:
1. Scrap Forums - Embellished, Scrapbook City; Scrapboxx; Scrapbook Savvy
2. QUT Blackboard (uni notes/info site)
3. Google - must get into the habit of using Blackle though
4. Our banks website - well it feels like daily paying bills!!! :(
G) Four of my favourite foods:
1. Chocolate
2. Chocolate
3. Corned Meat
4. Chocolate
H) Four places I would rather be right now:
1. In Bed
2. on holidays
3. At my scrapping desk
4. On a date with Stephen or out to dinner with my friends!
Stay happy,
Trish
Monday, September 11, 2006
Hugh Jackman is HOT!
Yep, even playing a gay man, he is divine! Went to see The Boy From Oz with Mum and Tammie on Saturday night and WOW! It was incredible! Really enjoyed it and sat there willing it not to end but it did LOL! Was a bit naughty and took some photos too. They aren't the best because I didn't take to much time with them, just pointed and clicked and hoped for the best. Tam pointed out that he had been making jokes about everyone having cameras and video phones so I thought ah, why not!! It was just spectacular and Tammie and I learned so much - like Peter Allen was married to Liza Minelli. According to mum (roll eyes here LOL) that is common knowledge but I suppose Tammie and I assumed that Peter "I go to Rio" gay man Allen was GAY and HADN'T been married to a WOMAN! Anyway, we learnt a lot and did I mention that Hugh Jackman is HOT!!!!
Also had a cyber crop on at Embellished on the weekend. I got 1 of the challenges done and another started but fell asleep last night on the lounge and so didn't get to upload them. The challenge was to use a sketch (I turned it around and flipped it), had to be 12x12, had to use a 5x7 photo, had to be about a season and had to include journalling. I love how it turned out. I have this photo for ages and even bought the paper a couple of weeks ago knowing that it would match the photo, so I finally got it scrapped. It is called Like Spring and the quote reads: "Thinking of you is like the spring, you bring joy and love to everything" (the 'joy' and 'love' are white stickers so hard to see in pic). Journalling reads: "Spring ~ the time of year when the days are warmer, the birds are chirping, flowers are blooming and everything becomes happy and beautiful again. Sarah, being with you is like Spring everyday - filled with happiness and beauty. I love you so much my beautiful, happy girl. Love Mum xoxo"
There was also a challenge on Scrapworld. Had to use 1 piece of cardstock, 5 pieces of patterned paper, 4 brads, 2 photo corners, the word Amaze, Amazed or Amazing in the title, florals or blossoms. I didn't get this one uploaded either but thought I might use it for my DT entry for the site. I would really love to get onto their DT, it seems like such a nice site. Anyway, I used the challenge as a push to finish the photo swap for Lynne which is about a year late (OK so it is still months but it is probably getting close to a year) so hopefully I can post it off tomorrow. I will be changing the title though (haven't stuck it down) and will probably put it the other way around (ie RHS is LHS etc)
Other than that not too much happening. I slipped on the stairs this morning while carrying Sarah and we both fell and she smashed her head against one of the stairs. Scared the heck out of me as she was a little dazed for a couple of minutes Had to phone Tammie to ask for advice but she was fine and back to herslef fairly quickly, by the time I got off the phone.
Emily has been a dream today although she is going slightly psycho being inside with all the rain. She loves playing outside so is a bit like a caged animal when she can't play outside. She told Steve yesterday, completely out of the blue, that she "loves Mummy very much and Mummy loves me very much, I don't know why we fight all the time" Too funny!! We do fight and I am dreading teen years but she is so sweet. When I told her about falling down the stairs and Sarah hit her head she said "Is she OK? Are you OK Mummy? Where did you hurt, I'll kiss it better" So she does care, despite making me feel like I am just an annoyance that can get food for her LOL!
Oh I nearly forgot, we had a snake in our back yard on the weekend. Steve borrowed a ute from work and we were all set to get into the back garden. We were sitting on the verandah in the morning chatting about where we should clear. Steve wanted to clear the area in front of the pool, put a retaining wall in but I think that is silly and think we should clear down the bottom behind the pool. So we went for a walk and I was convincing him my idea was best. He said yeah you are probably righ---- OMG can you see that? OMG Yes! A snake in the tree (OK its an overgrown shrub really) but we were saying we were going to get rid of it and then saw the snake. Eek! Stev HATES HATES HATES snakes, they are his major fear thing. I think he would rather parachute out of a plane without a parachute than be around snakes!!!
Anyway, luckily we are related to Dr Harry!! OK so he's not the REAL Dr Harry but OUR Dr Harry (poor Brad gets a call whenever we have animal 'visitors'!!) Now Brad and Tammie have 3 snakes so he has no fear and gives Steve some info on how to catch it. Apparently the long pool net is not such a good idea as it will freak the snake out, it will get out and would provoke an attack. So what you need to do is slowly approach it and then pat it! WTF??? Surely he is having a go at you Steve, pat a snake! Right!!! Steve won't even walk around behind the tree to get a closer look and you want him to pat it!!! And I sure as hell aren't touching it! Yuk! Well Brad had to go out to uni but tells us he'll come and get it later if we want him to! What now isn't suitable, are you sure?? Eeek!!! We kept an eye on our little mate for most of the day. Brad phoned back about 2.30pm and says he'll leave when Tammie gets back from voting. Phew...we're saved. So I go looking for the snake....but he's gone!!! Yep disappeared completely!
So all plans to garden are put on hold until ....oh 2020!!! We got rid of some junk down the side of the house and cut down trees in the front garden and I think Steve might have a fabulous idea about the area in front of the pool! LOL!
So quite an eventful weekend!
Oh and did I mention Hugh Jackman is HOT!!! No I mean really HOT! Mum would even consider "coming out of retirement for him" (yep, her words not mine PMSL!!!)
And on that note...time to go!
Chat soon
Trish
Also had a cyber crop on at Embellished on the weekend. I got 1 of the challenges done and another started but fell asleep last night on the lounge and so didn't get to upload them. The challenge was to use a sketch (I turned it around and flipped it), had to be 12x12, had to use a 5x7 photo, had to be about a season and had to include journalling. I love how it turned out. I have this photo for ages and even bought the paper a couple of weeks ago knowing that it would match the photo, so I finally got it scrapped. It is called Like Spring and the quote reads: "Thinking of you is like the spring, you bring joy and love to everything" (the 'joy' and 'love' are white stickers so hard to see in pic). Journalling reads: "Spring ~ the time of year when the days are warmer, the birds are chirping, flowers are blooming and everything becomes happy and beautiful again. Sarah, being with you is like Spring everyday - filled with happiness and beauty. I love you so much my beautiful, happy girl. Love Mum xoxo"
There was also a challenge on Scrapworld. Had to use 1 piece of cardstock, 5 pieces of patterned paper, 4 brads, 2 photo corners, the word Amaze, Amazed or Amazing in the title, florals or blossoms. I didn't get this one uploaded either but thought I might use it for my DT entry for the site. I would really love to get onto their DT, it seems like such a nice site. Anyway, I used the challenge as a push to finish the photo swap for Lynne which is about a year late (OK so it is still months but it is probably getting close to a year) so hopefully I can post it off tomorrow. I will be changing the title though (haven't stuck it down) and will probably put it the other way around (ie RHS is LHS etc)
Other than that not too much happening. I slipped on the stairs this morning while carrying Sarah and we both fell and she smashed her head against one of the stairs. Scared the heck out of me as she was a little dazed for a couple of minutes Had to phone Tammie to ask for advice but she was fine and back to herslef fairly quickly, by the time I got off the phone.
Emily has been a dream today although she is going slightly psycho being inside with all the rain. She loves playing outside so is a bit like a caged animal when she can't play outside. She told Steve yesterday, completely out of the blue, that she "loves Mummy very much and Mummy loves me very much, I don't know why we fight all the time" Too funny!! We do fight and I am dreading teen years but she is so sweet. When I told her about falling down the stairs and Sarah hit her head she said "Is she OK? Are you OK Mummy? Where did you hurt, I'll kiss it better" So she does care, despite making me feel like I am just an annoyance that can get food for her LOL!
Oh I nearly forgot, we had a snake in our back yard on the weekend. Steve borrowed a ute from work and we were all set to get into the back garden. We were sitting on the verandah in the morning chatting about where we should clear. Steve wanted to clear the area in front of the pool, put a retaining wall in but I think that is silly and think we should clear down the bottom behind the pool. So we went for a walk and I was convincing him my idea was best. He said yeah you are probably righ---- OMG can you see that? OMG Yes! A snake in the tree (OK its an overgrown shrub really) but we were saying we were going to get rid of it and then saw the snake. Eek! Stev HATES HATES HATES snakes, they are his major fear thing. I think he would rather parachute out of a plane without a parachute than be around snakes!!!
Anyway, luckily we are related to Dr Harry!! OK so he's not the REAL Dr Harry but OUR Dr Harry (poor Brad gets a call whenever we have animal 'visitors'!!) Now Brad and Tammie have 3 snakes so he has no fear and gives Steve some info on how to catch it. Apparently the long pool net is not such a good idea as it will freak the snake out, it will get out and would provoke an attack. So what you need to do is slowly approach it and then pat it! WTF??? Surely he is having a go at you Steve, pat a snake! Right!!! Steve won't even walk around behind the tree to get a closer look and you want him to pat it!!! And I sure as hell aren't touching it! Yuk! Well Brad had to go out to uni but tells us he'll come and get it later if we want him to! What now isn't suitable, are you sure?? Eeek!!! We kept an eye on our little mate for most of the day. Brad phoned back about 2.30pm and says he'll leave when Tammie gets back from voting. Phew...we're saved. So I go looking for the snake....but he's gone!!! Yep disappeared completely!
So all plans to garden are put on hold until ....oh 2020!!! We got rid of some junk down the side of the house and cut down trees in the front garden and I think Steve might have a fabulous idea about the area in front of the pool! LOL!
So quite an eventful weekend!
Oh and did I mention Hugh Jackman is HOT!!! No I mean really HOT! Mum would even consider "coming out of retirement for him" (yep, her words not mine PMSL!!!)
And on that note...time to go!
Chat soon
Trish
Thursday, September 07, 2006
My heart has been touched by complete strangers
What a week this has been. My boy turned 6 on Monday! I can't believe it...6!! He's in that next age bracket! I mean there is technically no actual classification of age brackets but for me its 0-5 then 6-10 so he's now in that next bracket. He's not a toddler, nor a little boy anymore but a proper 6 year old school kid, complete with dirt on the face, a tooth missing and a giggle about burping and other bodily functions - he's no longer as "little" as he looks. Don't get me wrong I know he's not a baby and if you know him you know he is not treated nor does he act like a baby (he's 6 going on 60, my little old man!!!) but he is so little for his age, sometimes it is hard to believe that he is actually 6.
He had a great birthday. Mummy came up with the brilliant idea that he should get his presents on the Sunday (Mummy just didn't want to be fighting with him about going to school an hour after giving him presents on Monday morning ;)) So we decided that we should have a little BBQ breakfast on Sunday morning and give him his presents then. That way he could play, play, play all day Sunday - which he did. He got a Brisbane Lions footy jersey and shorts and socks and they are nearly walking by themselves (I'm not allowed to wash them yet LOL!) he also got a PS2 so that got played with heaps on Sunday too.
Monday he went off to school with his 30 green cupcakes (mini footy fields complete with red smartie for the footy ball) It seems we have now entered the footy obsession phase - we've lived and breathed the Wiggles, then Stargate and now Aussie Rules!!! He also had a party after school, 10 pin bowling with 14 kids! I think they had a good time, I think I am still recovering LOL!
The only downer to his birthday was the passing of Steve Irwin - Crocodile Hunter, from a Stingray attack. That man was on my TV over and over and over again during Matthew's Wiggles obsession as one of Matthew's favourite DVD's was The Wiggles at Australia Zoo. I don't even remember what the actual name of the DVD is but it was know as Crocodile Hunter Big Steve Irwin for 2 years!!! I picked Matthew up from school and walked up to find him and overheard someone mention Steve Irwin had died. I thought I must have misheard. Then Bernie (Matthew's teacher) said it as well and then another parent on our way out. Matthew was devestated and I can't quite explain what I am thinking and feeling.
Wow! It is completley bizarre! I don't know this man, have never met him (although I think he had dinner with us and The Wiggles many times during the Wiggles Obsessive Phase of Matty's life ;) LOL). I have been really gutted by his death. I can't even explain why. I was a fan I suppose, I mean I liked his energy, how full on he was, how daggy he was, how passionate he was, how committed to the environment and animal welfare but I did not know this person, I wasn't really a fan as in I watched his shows etc and yet I can't get him out of my head. I suppose he had almost Superman like status....if anyone would survive a dangerous encounter he could. Are we all so touched by his death because it reminds us of our own fragility, of how precious and unpredictable life is, how we aren't really in control of our lives, that we are vulnerable? I have been so drawn to go to Australia Zoo, something is driving me to go there but I haven't yet. I feel so sad for his kids. I feel so much for Bob. That poor boy is the son of an icon, someone so public yet he is only 3 years old and will have no memory of his dad! That sux! I suppose too, it hits home for me cause Dad was a similar age when he passed away....it's just not fair!
And then I was also made aware this week of a very sad story of a very special and loved little girl Rani. Again I do not know these people yet their story has touched me in a way I cannot explain! Rani was born with "Biliary Atresia" and had been waiting for a liver transplant. I have only been aware of this little fighter for a few weeks. Sadly Rani passed away on Saturday morning. I cannot even begin to understand how John and Mel must be feeling, how do you get on with life, how do you keep going for the other 2 children they have. I have not been able to get Mel out of my thoughts nor the images of Rani out of my head.
I hate with a passion that Matthew has Diabetes and I suppose to some small extent I could kind of relate to living in hope that something will be done to cure this disease. I haven't however had to face the fact that I may lose my child, I haven't had to spend months in hospital with my baby. I haven't had to see my child sick and helpless and be able to do nothing. I haven't had to wait for an organ to keep my child alive. I haven't run out of time. I felt so many emotions when I read this familys story but mostly I felt guilt. How can I hate Matthew's condition so much when it is so nothing by comparision. I really think I have been quite depressed for the last few months and I truly believe that Diabetes has a lot to do with it. I get so sick of thinking about it and dealing with it, I hate thinking of what can go wrong if I don't look after this properly (the damage to his eyes, kidneys, organs, feet...all of the yuk stuff!), I hate having to always be thinking about food, blood sugars, being prepared for hypos and hypers, I just hate never being able to switch off from it. I hate seeing him having a hypo, seeing him so pale and weak and begging me to keep giving him food (everything in his body is telling him to get food into his system yet if we overdo it he ends up with high blood sugar and feels even crappier). I hate not being able to treat him completely like every other kid. I hate that from the age of 3 he has had to learn to be cautious and prepared and responsible. I hate so many things about life with Diabetes but I had one hell of a reality check on Monday when I read that Rani had passed away.
What an amazing little fighter. She lived to see her 1st birthday although that doens't compensate the many she didn't live to see. Her story may help hundreds, thousands of others by spreading word of how important organ donation is although that doesn't help her family who were unable to receive such a precious gift. This little girl has really touched my heart. I so wish I could do something to help Mel and John. I know they will never get over this but I pray that each day they will find it easier to get up and face the world with a smile. Life is so unfair. I know I have often lamented why? Why us? We're good people so why? Again I find myself asking the same questions. This family seem to be good people, what did they do to deserve this? If there is a God why does he hurt people like this, why have these good people had to go through this. I know one day I will find the answer to these questions but in the mean time I think I just want to be angry for a while and shake my head in disbelief and wonder why. 2 good people in the space of a week when there are so many bad people out there! Why?
So this week I have been touched by the passing of 2 people that I didn't even know. I will be keeping their families in my thoughts. In the mean time I will be cherishing my little family and not taking one moment for granted. I will also be talking to lots of people about Rani's story. I will be making sure people stop to think about the importance of donating your organs. What a gift when you are gone, the gift of life, hope and joy to another person's life! I am an organ donor and have always been passionate about it so please think about it seriously and make sure that your loved ones know what your desires and intentions are. Did you know that you can register as an organ donor online? http://www.organdonation.org.au/
Sorry to have been so deep and emotional!
Talk soon
Trish
PS ON a happier note, I finally have a baby who is walking! She started standing by herself last Tuesday with Emily pulling her down and pushing her over, Wednesday she refused to do anything. Thursday she as standing again. Friday she took a couple of steps. Saturday she took a few more and since then she is starting to walk a fair bit! Yeah 16mths and finally walking!!
He had a great birthday. Mummy came up with the brilliant idea that he should get his presents on the Sunday (Mummy just didn't want to be fighting with him about going to school an hour after giving him presents on Monday morning ;)) So we decided that we should have a little BBQ breakfast on Sunday morning and give him his presents then. That way he could play, play, play all day Sunday - which he did. He got a Brisbane Lions footy jersey and shorts and socks and they are nearly walking by themselves (I'm not allowed to wash them yet LOL!) he also got a PS2 so that got played with heaps on Sunday too.
Monday he went off to school with his 30 green cupcakes (mini footy fields complete with red smartie for the footy ball) It seems we have now entered the footy obsession phase - we've lived and breathed the Wiggles, then Stargate and now Aussie Rules!!! He also had a party after school, 10 pin bowling with 14 kids! I think they had a good time, I think I am still recovering LOL!
The only downer to his birthday was the passing of Steve Irwin - Crocodile Hunter, from a Stingray attack. That man was on my TV over and over and over again during Matthew's Wiggles obsession as one of Matthew's favourite DVD's was The Wiggles at Australia Zoo. I don't even remember what the actual name of the DVD is but it was know as Crocodile Hunter Big Steve Irwin for 2 years!!! I picked Matthew up from school and walked up to find him and overheard someone mention Steve Irwin had died. I thought I must have misheard. Then Bernie (Matthew's teacher) said it as well and then another parent on our way out. Matthew was devestated and I can't quite explain what I am thinking and feeling.
Wow! It is completley bizarre! I don't know this man, have never met him (although I think he had dinner with us and The Wiggles many times during the Wiggles Obsessive Phase of Matty's life ;) LOL). I have been really gutted by his death. I can't even explain why. I was a fan I suppose, I mean I liked his energy, how full on he was, how daggy he was, how passionate he was, how committed to the environment and animal welfare but I did not know this person, I wasn't really a fan as in I watched his shows etc and yet I can't get him out of my head. I suppose he had almost Superman like status....if anyone would survive a dangerous encounter he could. Are we all so touched by his death because it reminds us of our own fragility, of how precious and unpredictable life is, how we aren't really in control of our lives, that we are vulnerable? I have been so drawn to go to Australia Zoo, something is driving me to go there but I haven't yet. I feel so sad for his kids. I feel so much for Bob. That poor boy is the son of an icon, someone so public yet he is only 3 years old and will have no memory of his dad! That sux! I suppose too, it hits home for me cause Dad was a similar age when he passed away....it's just not fair!
And then I was also made aware this week of a very sad story of a very special and loved little girl Rani. Again I do not know these people yet their story has touched me in a way I cannot explain! Rani was born with "Biliary Atresia" and had been waiting for a liver transplant. I have only been aware of this little fighter for a few weeks. Sadly Rani passed away on Saturday morning. I cannot even begin to understand how John and Mel must be feeling, how do you get on with life, how do you keep going for the other 2 children they have. I have not been able to get Mel out of my thoughts nor the images of Rani out of my head.
I hate with a passion that Matthew has Diabetes and I suppose to some small extent I could kind of relate to living in hope that something will be done to cure this disease. I haven't however had to face the fact that I may lose my child, I haven't had to spend months in hospital with my baby. I haven't had to see my child sick and helpless and be able to do nothing. I haven't had to wait for an organ to keep my child alive. I haven't run out of time. I felt so many emotions when I read this familys story but mostly I felt guilt. How can I hate Matthew's condition so much when it is so nothing by comparision. I really think I have been quite depressed for the last few months and I truly believe that Diabetes has a lot to do with it. I get so sick of thinking about it and dealing with it, I hate thinking of what can go wrong if I don't look after this properly (the damage to his eyes, kidneys, organs, feet...all of the yuk stuff!), I hate having to always be thinking about food, blood sugars, being prepared for hypos and hypers, I just hate never being able to switch off from it. I hate seeing him having a hypo, seeing him so pale and weak and begging me to keep giving him food (everything in his body is telling him to get food into his system yet if we overdo it he ends up with high blood sugar and feels even crappier). I hate not being able to treat him completely like every other kid. I hate that from the age of 3 he has had to learn to be cautious and prepared and responsible. I hate so many things about life with Diabetes but I had one hell of a reality check on Monday when I read that Rani had passed away.
What an amazing little fighter. She lived to see her 1st birthday although that doens't compensate the many she didn't live to see. Her story may help hundreds, thousands of others by spreading word of how important organ donation is although that doesn't help her family who were unable to receive such a precious gift. This little girl has really touched my heart. I so wish I could do something to help Mel and John. I know they will never get over this but I pray that each day they will find it easier to get up and face the world with a smile. Life is so unfair. I know I have often lamented why? Why us? We're good people so why? Again I find myself asking the same questions. This family seem to be good people, what did they do to deserve this? If there is a God why does he hurt people like this, why have these good people had to go through this. I know one day I will find the answer to these questions but in the mean time I think I just want to be angry for a while and shake my head in disbelief and wonder why. 2 good people in the space of a week when there are so many bad people out there! Why?
So this week I have been touched by the passing of 2 people that I didn't even know. I will be keeping their families in my thoughts. In the mean time I will be cherishing my little family and not taking one moment for granted. I will also be talking to lots of people about Rani's story. I will be making sure people stop to think about the importance of donating your organs. What a gift when you are gone, the gift of life, hope and joy to another person's life! I am an organ donor and have always been passionate about it so please think about it seriously and make sure that your loved ones know what your desires and intentions are. Did you know that you can register as an organ donor online? http://www.organdonation.org.au/
Sorry to have been so deep and emotional!
Talk soon
Trish
PS ON a happier note, I finally have a baby who is walking! She started standing by herself last Tuesday with Emily pulling her down and pushing her over, Wednesday she refused to do anything. Thursday she as standing again. Friday she took a couple of steps. Saturday she took a few more and since then she is starting to walk a fair bit! Yeah 16mths and finally walking!!
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